Well you is officially ruint, you will have to have a mill now at any costs. lol
Not long after I got my mill, a guy with a mechanic garage across the lot from my shop ask what in the world I had hooked to my pickup. When I told him a saw mill, he wanted to look at it. I had a log handy so set it up and sawed it out. He was ruint and planning on moving back to Oklahoma, so decided that would be his first purchase.
What I did not know for a few months, was he went and got some small logs and sawed them up on his table saw. stickered them in his well house, where there was a little heat, then built some nice coffee tables out of them, Yea buddy he was hooked.